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her.she is one hundred percent alone, minus him.

meet her.

she has milk white skin, and jagged bones. her eyes are pale and soft, and could make you surrender under her breath (and they will.)

every night she goes to sleep with a man who touches her, and she feels sick. and she wishes he'd just leave the hair in her face.

(because it's easier to hide tears that way.)

she dreams at night.

her milky skin is spilling over unfamiliar fingers. the freckles on her back match the ones in his eyes, and she feels safe. she offers him her heart, and he closes it into a box.

(she wakes up feeling nine

william.dreams make him vomit.

meet william.

he has spider-leg fingers and eyes so cold they could stop your heart.
(and they will.)

every night william goes to sleep knowing that someone else is waking up with his only friend, and he wishes he could brush the honey-stained hair from her cheek.

(not the man, who can't even spell love without cheating.)

william dreams at night.

his spider fingers are creeping up the jagged edge of her spine. her skin is the color of milk, and lightly freckled. william keeps her safe, and has made a

watching you spin.you're a disco dancing, drama queen with dirty hair and the permanent smell of stale cigarettes. but god, are you beautiful, twisting and dancing under circular lights,

and vomiting when you're done.(acid does some crazy shit)

your hair was once blonde and beautiful like your eyes, but now it's laying in clumps almost everywhere, because you fucking pull out a strand whenever i'm around, i don't know why i do that to you.

but i never really ever offer to leave, either.

there's that one song that i always hear you listening to, it's the same old shit about love and loss and never being able to forget that special someone, i use to ge

The Day I Met God II.
What do you say to the lonliest man in the world?
"I think you're doing the best you can."
but in my mind it played past tense.

the best you could.

For awhile I had this sudden urge to hold onto God's hand.
I wonder how long it had been since someone comforted him.
This time, I shifted, uncomfortably.
"It's okay, Kalea. You don't have to."

for some reason I forgot that he knew every moment.

God got up, and walked to the edge of the balcony
i watched him grab the purple clouds and pull them closer to us
"Kalea, do you know what it's like to destroy?"

Yes God, I do.

I knew he could read my mind, but

She glows.
I think that every heartbeat is a plea to be heard
Beat one: I need you.
Beat two: You don't need me.
-

there is probably a reason why girls are the ones who wear makeup.
such as we tend to show our hurt more.
lies can't be seen beneath the foundation
you call it makeup
i call it coverup.
Beat: I don't want you to look underneath me.
-

i use to catch fireflys and throw them to the ground and watch as they glowed
i hope that when I die, i'll explode into a glowing galaxy.

Beat: I wonder if you'd kill me just to watch me glow.

-

those people that have irregular heartbeats,
i won

lightening bolt eyes.he has lightening bolt eyes and one fucking killer smile.

   let me introduce you to whom i call "fire-fly."

he has ice white skin and something about the way his hair falls that makes me wish mine would conform to such a beauty.

   looking at you for so long makes me feel. Really feel.

he calls them fire-flies but i say lightening bugs.
fire burns hot against his skin, and i can feel the heat in his heart
but lightening bolt eyes can destroy you.

   but god, it's so beautiful first, but only at first.

he calls me his "freckled girl" and i call him my heart
and he says that i shine undern

bipolar hearts.we use to watch Fight Club together, because she said that it made her feel a little less alone, and i could never reply so i held her in my lap.

and she told me she was kalea's dizzy mind.

and in real life, you would think nothing of anything really, because she watches the birds fly just like you do. the morning rises on the same side of her window, and she can watch the clock tick away hours, just like you.

and she told me she was kalea's spinal cord.

i watched her pick at her fingernails for too long, and alway

The Day I Met God.I met God one evening.
The funny thing is, i wasn't wanting to find him.

                        ask anything.

God was smoking.
"Why are you smoking?"

                         "I'm God Kalea, i'm stressed."

We sat atop a big balcony and watched his creations move.
"They're so beautiful", God was breathing hard.
But I know they aren't. they aren't. they aren't.

still.one.
-

her name is alice. there is a slight blood stain on the valley where her lips part, and her eyes are two supermassive black stars that can't show anything but hurt. she can't bring herself to look in the broken mirror puddles that are all over the ground.

(and i don't blame her)

two.

-

she borrows her mother's raincoat because it smells like home. not the homes that are flooded with laundry soap or soft candles burning in the family room, but more like the paint she spilled on the carpet, or the whiskey on her father's breath.

charlotte.it was halloween and charlotte was dressed as an obnoxious pumpkin, because her mother tries to make her a normal child.

(and charlotte will whisper that normal children smash pumpkins, not wear them.)

when charlotte was seven she decided that she would swim far out into old pine lake, and hold her breath until the colors in her eyes turned purple, like the bruises that slid down her thighs and touched apon her fragile feet.

(and it was then that charlotte realized, that no one would be around to save her, and that just wasn't the point.)

charlotte decides to be called "char" because it sounds like something silent

Catching Paper Holes.
We use to sit on the porch and watch stars. Well, I watched them and all you could do was laugh and say how they looked like little tiny holes that people had pierced through God's heart with their sins and lies.
I hate it when you ruin pretty things.

-

" I hate freckles, they're like mistakes made on paper you can't erase."
I was almost sure you knew that I have freckles.

-

You said sometimes you feel like you're running into the sky and when you fall, you fall into my arms and sink.
I wanted to tell you, that if I fell from the sky, I'm pretty sure I would sink into nothing.
You can't catch anything.

-

We went to the carnival,

trains wreck, ships sink.
Listen:
to speak quite clearly, i'm a train wreck that hasn't happened.
i can feel the people franitcally running around inside my heart
and when I bend forward, I feel mothers grasping their childrens hands.

i don't want to be alone.
-

Listen:
i'd like to not pray 50 times a night for you
for something you can't hear or feel
but somehow, it calms my train wreck
passengers have something to hold onto

i always wear my seatbelt.
-

Everytime I hold your hand it feels 1000 lbs. too heavy
i pretend you pass your life into me
it makes me feel like i could live forever

i wish i could e

mertha.i like to seperate my thoughts into names, to keep them in order.

my lonliness is named mertha, and she'd like to meet you.

mertha sits by me on my bed and we draw pictures of tulips and snails and wonder when that math test was. she takes my hand and grips it slowly, while singing that song my mother use to sing when i was 4.

(and i wonder exactly how she knew the words.)

mertha walks with me in the rain and understands that i don't like to be asked questions in the morning. sometimes when i'm sitting in the bathtub with no running water she won't leave me alone, and mertha knows that she is unwelcome.

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I Want To Feel Contest.

by ~create-illusions, Aug 6, 2009, 12:15:44 PM
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So I am introducing a new contest that is open to all art mediums!

This contest is about making the viewer, me, and yourself feel something. Whether it be sadness, happiness, anger, remorse, laughter, etc...

This can be presented in a photograph, manipulation, writing, etc..

This is your chance to make someone feel what you're feeling! To really get across your deepest emotions.

As long as you are expressing some kind of emotion, the entry will be appropriate!

The Rules:

All entries MUST be produced after the date of August 6th (i want you to spark creativity).

All entries must be sent to me in a note either containing a thumbnail or link to your entry, and please title the message "I Want To Feel Contest."

All contestants may only enter one entry.

Every type of art is allowed.

Please no sexual submissions(this means any showing of the male/female reproductive organs, breasts, etc.., bare backs and shoulders are fine.)

You have until September 7th to enter, that gives you one whole month!

The Prizes:

The first place winner will recieve a 6 month subscription from ~create-illusions and an honorable mention.

The second place winner will recieve a 3 month subscription from ~create-illusions and an honorable mention.

The third place winner will recieve a 1 month subscription from ~create-illusions and an honorable mention.

All of the entries will be featured in a jouranl especially made for them.

If you have any questions please feel free to contact me at ~create-illusions

Have fun, and show me your emotions!

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~Puuronen Nov 1, 2009

Waiting for the results

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~Livadialilacs Sep 21, 2009 Hobbyist Digital Artist

When will you submit the results?? I've heard nothing about it yet.

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~Kai-Tea Sep 19, 2009 Hobbyist Photographer

Where are the results?

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~Aeltari Sep 15, 2009 Professional Digital Artist

No one has heard anything about this, no updates anywhere. Please let us know whats going on since many people entered this.

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~Puuronen Sep 9, 2009

I sent a note over a week ago...I´ve heard nothing tough....

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~doofassi Sep 7, 2009

Crap, I'm too late. Nice one though. Should've started drinking couple of days earlier. Had immediately few ideas (feelings

)to participate in this. Well, catch you next time hopefully.

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!VampireInTheSunlight Sep 5, 2009 Writer

_{do i link t it here, or note you?
i am doing both
sorry if i fail}

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~Livadialilacs Aug 30, 2009 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Oh wait. I just read the rules again. I have an entry that I submitted in July but you said an entry must be produced after August 6?

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~Livadialilacs Aug 30, 2009 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I can't wait until after September 7 to see the results!

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~inkd902 Aug 25, 2009

oooh, writing!! def! haha

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